talbert st.claire wrote:
P.S. If you all have anything that perhaps would help my condition please feel free to drop a message. I would be really greatful!
The strange thing is that even though I have these major issues I am still quite happy at times. I need to stay positive.
Thanks
Tal
Hi Tal,
Mi mother had symptoms pretty much like yours a couple of years ago, she is better now... I myself have been ill for quite a long time several years ago, but I'm great now. It's my experience that many times the illness is just our body talking to ourselves. I'll do my best to explain myself but I find it quite difficult because english is not my primary language.
I found that the illness disappears (just like that) when you stop seeing it like something bad; when you start accepting it like... let's say, a "characteristic" (sorry, can't think of a better word). Everything we have, everything we are, is a gift. It's not a right, it's a gift. By the time I started looking everything this way, all my illness just disappeared. I had back problems, but right now I feel great (sleeping on the floor over a thin futon did the trick for me). I had anemia and low pressure problems, now I'm just fine (just started doing some exercise). I had kidney problems, one of my kidneys works quite bad... still have that problem, but it did got a lot better, I don't take any more medications for it...the exercise helped I guess
Of course it didn't happen in one day, it took some time, but the "decision" of not seeing the problems like problems took less than a second. It's not actually a decision, it's something like a "positive let go". I was so depressed... and one day I just thought "Ok, that's it, I won't fight anymore, I'll just accept whatever happens to me, because it must be a reason for it", just after
feeling that, I felt a big knot being untied inside me, and slowly but steadily everything got
a lot better, in all aspects.
So I hope you'll start seeing your problems, your illness, like a chance to reborn, like a chance to stop and start again. For the Spring and Summer to exist, there must be a Fall and a Winter before. There's nothing wrong with it, it is beautiful in a different way. It's something completely natural, so... relax, enjoy this time you're spendening in a different way than before. It's like the night, you have to sleep to be able to rise again tomorrow, we're just talking about a different time range. And as a consecuense, when you start playing the whistle again, your new tunes will become even deeper
Best wishes,
