bwat wrote:Yes, all change is a result of a lack of success - for us rational types at least.
Ignoring the scathing implication that I am irrational, I assure you that things are not always so black and white.
I agree that dissatisfaction is a driver for change, but it must be pointed out that the route from A to B is not always straightforward. Sometimes change occurs spontaneously regardless of our strategies. Dissatisfaction with one's playing is a normal undercurrent (and I think a healthy one, when not taken to extremes), but we do not always know the best direction; good advice can be incompletely understood or even wrongly interpreted, and that means we continue to apply that misunderstanding until change lets us see it for what it is. An adequate superficial result doesn't mean we're doing things in the best possible way. For example, my embouchure was working well, yet I still wasn't satisfied with it, but I couldn't say why; after all, it was working, right? That's success by any measure. Then after many years I had a breakthrough, but it had nothing to do with any direct, guided effort on my part. It just appeared one day and settled in as if on its own, and it was significant enough for me to take notice and be thankful for it, because it was clearly a major and satisfying improvement that I could replicate without fail, and with ease. It was clear that my old approach - which worked, in its way - was now to be discarded. Some people have a problem with discarding an approach, mainly due to the investment of time and faith they've put into it. It's personal for them, because they don't want to give up what they see as hard-won. My perspective, however, is that if one is
really committed to improvement, it's better to regard one's methods and accomplishments as ultimately provisional, no matter how good they are. Now, I had assumed that my usual embouchure up to that point was probably as good as it was going to get, so I wasn't even working on embouchure in any goal-driven sense at the time - and yet the new embouchure just happened spontaneously. It was a development I had always wanted to arrive at, but in retrospect I could see that my efforts had been on the wrong trajectory for it; given that, it was a surprise that the the change could have happened at all. It's not unusual for changes to be like this; they can happen from subconscious workings that we are not aware of, or maybe even simply on their own, apropos of nothing in particular. It's entirely rational to suggest that I could lay no claim to any credit for the change. As you might guess, I have a great interest in the process of learning, but sometimes the nuts and bolts of it are very hard to pin down.
In any discipline, you cannot have change without effort. That is axiomatic. But I have also found a paradox: While effort is necessary, it can't be depended on to directly make the change, or even account for it. Change sometimes comes at you sideways, and might even be unlooked-for. My embouchure story is a perfect example, because while it's easy to assume it would have been due to past work, simple cause-and-effect doesn't hold water since the new way bore no resemblance whatsoever to the sort of efforts I had been making for years, in what was essentially the opposite direction; I had no prior experiential point of reference to the new approach. It was a complete departure from everything I was habituated to, so I can't say that my previous efforts had anything to do with it - at least anything you could point to. That's why I say one can't depend on effort to be a direct agent of the result, or at least the result you had in mind. But one must make effort all the same, because without it nothing happens, and everyone knows that. It's a mysterious equation.
There is a school of thought that posits that the relationship between effort and result is not so much causal, as it is
conditional. When certain conditions are in place, a result arises. A simple example would be driving a nail into a board with a hammer: How may times have we bent the nail, or missed it? The effort is there, but the right conditions - sufficient force coupled with right trajectory - are not. Again, my embouchure change was not caused directly by my efforts; this is without question. Rather, certain conditions permitted the change to develop. It is a fine point, but I think a significant one. What exactly those conditions were that allowed my own change to arise, though, are not apparent to me. I can say, however, that there was a sloughing-off, a letting-go aspect to the result being able to arise. We hear this all the time: "Just let go!" The thing is, I don't think you can force it. It happens naturally when the time is ripe, but experience is necessary for it, too.
"If you take music out of this world, you will have nothing but a ball of fire." - Balochi musician